tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17216355.post6997311978934131614..comments2023-10-17T07:55:30.129-07:00Comments on Chickpea: Melanie Rimmerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05871992146568559100noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17216355.post-2790846877997098412009-07-11T05:01:31.731-07:002009-07-11T05:01:31.731-07:00I love you too Mel, and I'm proud of you, and ...I love you too Mel, and I'm proud of you, and I'm glad you're my friend, and I love talking to you as I value your intelligent and perceptive input into my life, and I love your art work, and I love your patchwork, and I love the grandchildren you gave me, and I love the way you interact with them, and I love........ well, this could go on but I'm sure you get the picture. God bless you and hold you in Hid ineffable Love.Bill of Ballaughnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17216355.post-13637618863818937712009-07-11T03:00:45.856-07:002009-07-11T03:00:45.856-07:00I used to get bulled at school, and participating ...I used to get bulled at school, and participating in class discussions in subjects like goegraphy & science only gave the bullies ammunition, and could leave me self-conscious and self-doubting. (This is said with hindsight as a 37 year old - It was much more subconscious at the time) but in srt class, where little talkimg was done I could escape inside a world of hand-eye & right mode existing for an hour at a time. I found it very calming, and maybe that's why I did well at it, though I didn't do badly at the other subjects. I just found art a safer place to be.<br />It's interesting that although you've identified that the left-mode is set on a self-hating loop, but that you can't get ridof it yet. Don't worry overmuch, the drugs will help with that, and by finding ways to cope better you'll find you'll fail less, or at least realise that failing (breaking a glass, splling coffee, mis-judging situations) isn't the end of the world, and you'll eventually get out of the other side.<br />You will get there, you are gettiing there. you're already in a better place than you were in February half-term hols. I love you big sister.Yellowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05975849028363084985noreply@blogger.com